Yesterday was a hard day for me. I think that you don't care about me anymore because working would have replaced my place in your heart.
I never ask you how important I am in your heart, because I know I will not be the first, for the past and now, and later on in life. Family members would be the foremost important thing in your life which I could not ever surpass. And now coming in your work.
Then you scolded me harshly. This similar incident happened before, my ex scolded me as he think that I was annoying. I was afraid of the same thing happen again, which you leave me too. I regarded that particular feeling I experienced in the past and now as a symptom of breaking. You don't know how's the terrible feeling I'm having right now. And you don't know how afraid I'm right now, afraid of losing you.
Somehow, what you were scolded were right, and I feel very guilty. So on the next day, means today, I tried not to repeat what I had did yesterday. And I did it! But what's the return? You said you're tired. Yes, you are tired everyday as you worked so hard and back so late. I'm so sorry that I'm not a considerate girlfriend, I still threw a lot of words by telling you how's my day today. Then I realized, this is not what you concerned about. And I would like to tell you about my feeling yesterday hoping you can pacify me, but you're so tired. You would not want to listen anymore and even though you do, you also wouldn't pacify me.
Then you started to frustrate because you're exhausted. I started to feel that we are in the compromised state of a relationship. It's undeniable that communication is a vital component in any relationship. However, you back very late everyday and work for seven days per week. Basically, we do not have good communication with each other. And I feel really sad for that.
After all, you may not remember this secret place and you would not see this post. But I really hope that we can get back to normal. I love you.
